sMaRtIe_SmArTiE

2nd day of school stress...

2010-01-07T11:25:00.000-08:00

Stress with school work....Today i went school alone cause choon kiat( classmate who stay near me) scare he will make me late too. So i took 2 buses and reached school...cooling day to start a lesson...Slept in the bus until i reach soon...Saw Ben in school...chat for awhile after which headed to my class..System development...dry...boring....C++ lol how dead can i be in this subject ...dont know...its still too early to find out ....alright after lesson straight came home to sleep..Don't know why today super tired....came home sleep until 7 pm woke up for dinner, then started with my assignment testing n all ...oh....bash....once learn now forget omg ....had quite sometime figuring out how to get the manu function n things working.....i think i m going to start burning mid night oil sooooon....now its 3 am n i hardly got my manu working....ok i think i need to put in more effort for this....alright sleeping already ..nights to the world will update more when i have the time.....

-Am I DoInG iT rIgHt ???-

2 day of school...

2010-01-06T10:18:00.000-08:00

Yay ..!~!~! Daddy fetch me to school today ...Kinds short day ..but don't know why recently just getting more and more tired...alright its like 2 am n i have school tomorrow...going to sleep already....nights to the world....

-PrOjEcT FeVeR-

1st day of school in SIM

2010-01-05T06:49:00.000-08:00

Start school le !~!~!~.....1st day of school so many things i learn b4 but its just not the same now....so much different from what you do in poly.....So much more expected from you....more reading up and etc .....Guess what ??? The 1st day my assignment is out already though its just one subject...its like giving everyone headache already .....Subject 2 is coming up on thur....Feelings are mixed ....but 1 thing for sure ....I must do well :) thats the motivation i give myself...since i paid that much money....oh well i guess no subject is easy :) so ya good luck to all who are studying and going back to school...:) my war has start ....jia you ba alll.....

Ok lets talk about School today ....Woke up at 8 meet Chee for lorrr mee...then later met Dom in the train on the way to Dover to meet jeanie.....then head to school for lesson ....as usual no problems finding the class....ok the problem comes knowing what the lecturer is talking about ...lolx alright i guess its all something i have learn before but forgotten lolx....hmm all starts from scrap....ok...i think i need to put in double effort this time....gonna start researching for my assignment le..OMG hahahaaha.....ENJOY !!!! nights to the world....

-FiXeD FeElInG FoR ScHoOl BuT SuRe NeVeR rEgReT :D-

Tomorrow start school...

2010-01-04T08:03:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is the start of school...To be accurate its today..... Starting of school makes me feel excited and also worried...excited after so long of not going back school and worried that i cannot cope with school work...Its exciting to see all my friends back in school ...i love the feeling of going back school ..knowing more new friends....know more new friends hmm......

Practically stayed at home the whole day ....watch finish my hi, my sweetheart....Arrange a bit of things on my table ....cleaning up for school to reopen....took a afternoon nap and it became evening ...omg ....am i so tired ?????? why do i sleep so much now a days .......Should start sleeping early ....hahaha....*see how* ok after my nap i met agnes and genie(my ex colleague) for dinner at bedok....lolx omg ...you know working people feel so tired lol haha ....k la i m going to be zombie soon after starting school....alright after dinner went home....Dont know why now a days feeling super tired....haha okok.....going to sleep already ...preparations are done...oh ya i need to go buy a scheduler and a pencil box ....i dont have those ....hahah how to start school man???? LOL clown right ....alright meeting kevin for hougang lorr meee and dom + jeanie for early lunch ....nights ....Good night to the world.....!!!!!!!

-It'S NeVeR NiCe To HaTe...It'S NeVeR NiCe To IgNoRe.-

New year

2010-01-03T09:23:00.000-08:00

Its been a new year ....everyone starting sch soon i guess...hope everyone do put in effort in studies n etc... ok i m going to reopen the blog for blogging since i m going back sch sooooon.....Hope i ll love sch ..n cope well in sch ....everyone happy new year hope your wishes do comes true.. for those how have forgotten old friends look forward to knowing new friends :)

-NeW YeAr NeW FrIEnDs-

Sometimes just sucked ....just suck

2009-11-16T06:19:00.000-08:00

Its sucked at times when you are lost of what to do ....just hope the world will stop for awhile for you to think about things...hmm...yap

-SuCk AbOuT LiFe At TiMeS-

Bored..

2009-11-13T08:45:00.001-08:00

Feeling like starting to blog again for some reason its hard to explain a lot things.....but for some purpose its nice to write things so i can take my time to write about life.....

=cHaNgE Of SkIn=

No mood day.

2009-05-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

Expected a fruitful morning or at least a fruitful day ...end up big rain n ppl didnt get up on time....So decide to slp abit late hoping the rain might be better so at least can meet up with Mr Chee earlier for movie....end up rained almost the whole....Watch some shows i downloaded after which decided to go play some games ....again bad news... Tomorrow have to work night ....ZzzZZZzz totally dont like night shift ...wat to do ...boss ask...haiz...do lo .....no choice.......really bad day ...what n off day .....really feel like quitting the job now and do nth ....You know sometimes plans are just nice .....but external factors spoits your day...make you feel sucky the whole damm day...argh.........

Have you ever make extra effort for ppl??? Puting in that extra effort and ppl just make it feel normal really suckz.....perhaps its not the effort you wann see the result but how much ppl appreciate the effort...if the person know its done with effort shouldnt they put in at least that little abit of appreciation. Question is what have you done.????

=SiMpLIty StuPiD=

today is my last day of shift 3 may

2009-05-03T09:20:00.000-07:00

Tired tired tired today finish my shift .....Last day of shift ...feeling so tired, tml going swimming , tue going pool with wen quan n gang , wed going badminton and thur going dinner with zhiwei ....kinda tired week though .....going to have my long holiday again .....9 days of off wat should i do. ... Watching lots and lots of shows ...now online really anything also can watch....Hope i ll enjoy my off days

If i can change things .....i might wan to change the people i know..........

*DiSLiKe ThE WhOm I Am*

View about human...

2009-04-28T12:07:00.001-07:00

Back home today after working the whole of monday night.....pretty tired but still having energy to go out for pool with my colleague at work since they jio me why not right ? Had 2 hrs of pool thats it go home .....pretty tired anyway so dont feel like staying long also ....end of another off day ....2 more days to go and there goes my 3 days off.....work work work ...sianz

My views about humans changes everyday....guess it started don't know when ....perhaps the time i know you ....you and you.......life's change, to the extend judging people becomes so annoying but then can't help it as it has became a basic instinct....And it really does ......feel bad at times i guess its why we start to refrain ourselves from some friends. You know they do you no good ....you know they are just there because they need your help...you know in times of crisis they wont be around...you know when they are in trouble they find you a worthy friend....you know you know and you just know....you know that kind of feeling......its how i m ..............nOw..........

*UglY PeOpLe WiTh UgLy HeArT*

Sick of this life.

2009-04-26T11:06:00.000-07:00

Work work work its all about the boring working life....so many things to think about these days your head just feel bursting everyday......sch .....loan........insurance talk definitely made me think more about plans in the future. How much can you expect when you dont have a better life then other .....when you dont have a better luck then other...right ? Things that you dont need to work for come to you ....things you want just appear in front of you........thats life .......

when you are busy are...you are busy with your stuff.....when you are not you never remember any important things. You know some friends will never look for you when they are busy and they will never remember you when they are free.....People use to say humans are ugly .....i think you are the most unfit person in the world to say that..............

=MoOdY lIfEsYtLe=

So long nv hear from you.

2009-04-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

Working has been rather fine, same old thing at work i guess.Spending quite sometime at home playing game n etc. Went out to eat with jinhui at sokudo the other day cant really rem but not long , last week i guess. rather static life so yap didnt actually have things to update on my bloggy...Hasn't been chatting much online i guess too......spending late nights on games n shows ....yap ...Hope everyone is just doing fine.. which i guess so ......hope i m too .....yap exams uni ppl coming soon study hard...thats all i have ciaoz........

Its been so long .....so long so long......since then.....

=ThE SaMe OlD ThInGs=

Hate the feeling

2009-03-12T09:18:00.000-07:00

I hate it....seriously ......whatever..........hate this damm bloody year ..........i hate you ....hate all of you .......

when tears dry up you just have nothing to come out...............

=FoRgEt It, ThIs LiFe...LiFe SuX=

FAIL BTT FUCK

2009-03-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

FUCK! LA!

=MoOdLeSs LeR :-(=

tequila

2009-03-05T10:34:00.000-08:00

Chatting chatting.......you still do remember........hmm........was my judgments right....guess not .....always not......hmmm.............felt like a nut .....that nv cracks.....

guess tequila is my best friend afterall..........drinking off the pass......

=a ShOt A dAy MaKeS YoU HaPpY AlL ThE wAy......=

Last day of shift

2009-03-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

Has been kinda busy lately with work ...other then work actually is just watching shows at home. I think if one day i die its due to stomach issue or watsoever.

到底是因为时间改变了一个人还是一个人应为时间而改变。。。我相信你对一个女人真的那么重要吗？

=变了的人永远是变了但有些东西是永远都不会变的。=

人生

2009-03-01T08:36:00.000-08:00

有人说：从何时开始你都不把痛说出来，也许是忘记什麽时候开始不喊痛了吧，后来就慢慢说不出口了。

=.虚伪.=

wtf lah.

2009-02-26T09:45:00.000-08:00

where were you when you are needed...

=习惯=

nice work.

2009-02-18T08:15:00.000-08:00

Work today ....pretty tired at work today kinda tired cause so many things happen in the morning....+++ stomach dont feel so alright...dont even feel like eating lunch actually ..,.......afternoon so many calls n emails ......kinda work till damm shagged today ....guess its the stomach ba.....i feel pretty bad today pain n weird....cant differential gastric n stomach already....haiz....at nite no choice joel going back to aust le ...so eat prata lo........eat already feel lagi worst aiya....sianz to max....think tml onwards dont wann eat too much le....that one coming ...aiya....sigh....

where....when .....what..........

=ThE StOmAcH FeVeR :( =

便了的你。

2009-02-15T03:57:00.000-08:00

那天的那句话让我想了很久。。。也设都不一样了吧，一切都不一样了吧。。。好多好多得诺言都不再实现了。当初的承诺都向是一场空，难道能做的就只有这样吗？。。想出那句话就是对重要的人最好得帮助吗?咳。。。

=搞笑=

Assumption.

2009-02-11T16:29:00.001-08:00

我发现失去一个很重要的东西
那一年我想要认识你的一种勇气
它让我亳不畏惧的告诉你我的感情
如今害怕的思念著每一个过去
失眠已占据了你走後大部份的时间
不然这个时候我应该在你的房间
看著你写给我的第一封和最後一封信
如此的转变用了四年三个月又七天
我试著勇敢一点
你却不在我身边
我的坚强和自信
是因为相爱才上演
我一定会勇敢一点
即使你不在我身边
你的决定和抱歉
改变不了我的明天
勇敢是我今天再也无法面对的事情
因为面对了勇敢记忆就会没有你
我的虚弱一直提醒著照顾自己
当初如果照顾好你
现在也不会被自己放弃
我试著勇敢一点
你却不在我身边
我的坚强和自信
是因为相爱才上演
我一定会勇敢一点
即使你不在我身边
你的决定和抱歉
改变不了我的明天

Do what human do best....assumption.Never had the choices cause i never get to choose....Thanks

=.本来.=

So ?

2009-02-10T11:15:00.000-08:00

:)

=勇敢一点=

sianz work.

2009-02-07T07:43:00.000-08:00

you, yourself and yours...

=傻=

work starts

2009-02-06T05:36:00.000-08:00

Work ...tired.....home....dinner....sleep...

=wOrThLeSs FoOl.告诉我.=

letting go

2009-02-05T07:41:00.000-08:00

Went out the whole day.....Going to work tml ...pretty tired pretty sian...wat to do working is like that ...Those who are studying of cause go back sch
la aiya...okay la tired going to slp soon already ....Work ahead...go go....

After going to my secret thinking area with a bottle of heniken the other night....i think i have to let somethings go....yap...you need to learn i need to learn i think i need to learn alot more things...Its so hard, its so tough....what to do ....somethings just doesn't remain the same...i have to be responsible for my words and actions just like everyone else do....perhaps some's logic is true ba....love is always a very selfish thing ...that i totally agree....n so for somethings can never remain the same.....how i wish i was a selfish person sometimes ....someone more selfish to myself.......perhaps thats what i need to learn...there are so much more i wan to bring across ...i wann say ...but guess nah...time n chance wont be there for me ....n also i have seal the most important thing, heart....The pass has been so different, it just dont work the same, i still lose to trust like what is said from the mouth of a important person....letting go letting go...*tIrEd*

=FaLleN AnGeL....缺席.=

The day i was lost

2009-02-03T22:33:00.001-08:00

I lost the sight of you .....Didn't expect so much .....though its over, i also know something again....You always learn after you experience it....Not knowing what to do doesnt mean you run ....it wont help .....just got to face it n find a solution...When things dont work out it just tells you that there is one lesser solution in a particular problem. Everything you do every decision you make will have a reaction ...remember that ....perhaps maturity to make the decision for you is still not there ba....Need to go through more to learn...At time human needs to go through the hard way to learn things in a better and smarter way.

Something its better not to know........since theres no way it can be changed and it adds on to more problems then it doesnt matter if its known or not....Perhaps wat ppl say its true......worry and caring for someone is a privileges.....some will just have to give up on these privileges. Seeing what has happen make me feel some decision had been wrong. Be it guiding through ppl , be it caring and sharing with ppl , be it letting ppl know things......Starting to have doubts in myself ....being it at times....doubt that am i really someone making the right choice in things i do in things i decide on....guess i just have to start choosing my friends ........

= A sEaLeD HeArT-带我走-=

less then 24 hrs.....

2009-01-30T19:09:00.000-08:00

The day is coming again .....every year once ....hehe bday.....Guess wat??? This year will be another same year.....the day will be like any other day .......i guess....as same as the pass.....on the actually ....no celeb ....timing not right n etc....everyone will celebrating my bday on a separated day.....aiya used to it le i still have to take leave for my bday .....wats more supprise right ? Ok i ll still wish for the same thing every year .....everyone to be happy and hope everyone will get wat they wan okay ? bless all of you guys out there ......

As expected ???hmmm......guess its the same ......shall see it okay.......i m quite sure it will be that way again .....except for the year b4. An experiment that has a known result......so if its last min??? ever think that its important ???.....thats the question...........

=SoRrY AgAiN?=

These days

2009-01-29T10:28:00.000-08:00

Just came back from my jog pretty tired.........so busy these days...so tired working out, also accompanying ppl that makes me laugh :)......Holiday here i come ...hope i enjoy my off leave off....Was mostly outside today ....morning bball , afternoon go pool and evening when to my warrent officer's hse to take ang bao ....enjoyed talking to my army mates about the pass...change so much .....so heavenly now compared to my time....see timing wise i m alway bad...:/

Thinking through ........missing through...........tired through........knowing through..............Do you really think you are matured? Thats wat i like to ask myself all the time..........

=WhY.=

CNY....CMI.....

2009-01-25T11:00:00.000-08:00

Everything seems so different this year.....Went to work with a heavy heart....hehe....CNY eve go work ....1st day of work somemore, i mean night........quite sian but ok ba ........alone at work ...quite use to alone doing things :)

Reading through some entries from random blog hunts.....kinda miss sching days.....Thinking about some sching days that i cannot returned.....Guess its right from one my colleague, our mentality now really not suitable to work...hmm.....Some good old days can nv return. Went back sec sch 2 days ago , then i notice i left the sch for like 7 years. Was chatting with my form teacher , our farvourite Mrs Chang. Actually wan tell her things but eventually cut out the idea..suddenly dont feel like sharing anything so left with the crowd of my sec sch friends and went lunch together.... i still love the life there...Till then i only need to worry about sch work ....thats all.....hate the life of a grown up......grumbling about doesnt seems to change any facts .....can life just stops at some point of time...how much more come n go..............alot alot alot alot...

=A sEaLeD HeArT=

dbl 0

2009-01-21T12:43:00.000-08:00

After work ...DBL 0.....1 brandy mix (free) , 1 dont know wat ( liquor + red bull) , 1 tequila, 1AK 46 or 49 forgotten 1 red bull volka and 1 jug brandy + something....and dance until 3 am lolx....4446am now....gona slp ...nights...

=sTuRbBon=

New Morning

2009-01-17T19:01:00.000-08:00

Its morning time .....woke up by mami cause she was complaining about my room lolx.....cant help it cause i didnt clean it for a couple of days....lolx woke up so early today cause mami wanted to talk to me i think keep talk ...i keep slping lolx.....okay la not very early also cause its time to wake my twin sister up ....cause i promise last night to wake her up this morning cause jio her go supper lolx.......ok la just felt like blogging little things in the morning ...cause i m starting to like the morning more then the night ....a lot of ppl will there in there morning ........

Was i right ? was i selfish ? was i just doing it because of my own will? was it a mistake.....?? felt like a mistake.....:/ one thing about me....timing it alway a problem...............haix...just gotta keep normal :)

=1 BuRdEn DoWn, 1 PrOBlEm ArIsE.. =

new skin

2009-01-16T04:55:00.000-08:00

new skin :) some will like some will hate....hehe.....
omg i got the messed up lolx....its like arh......No meeting anyone lately la .....alamak ....look so .................hahah but i think its okay la ....hehe

=NeW StYlE lO=

2009-01-14T09:15:00.000-08:00

Tiring day.....slp for those little hours can really kill you .... i mean ya.....omg...can you stand slping like also 3-4 hrs daily :X.....My energy is almost used up ......Almost slpt at work today ....calls were alright ...just damm tired.....Still have things at nite ....omg.......End my work 7 + + rush to air port see nick for the last time bfore he go overseas.....reach home around 12 +++....super tired la ...still got to rush my report :( sai lei....hehe dadddy.bought beer hehe....mami slp le...lolx okay ...she approved :) but not drinking too much cause got work tml....yap...busy day busy day...........................

Follow what you think its right.......follow your feelings......sometimes following me is wrong...i alway say i not always right ....i m a human .....Somethings i guess i have to fix it....Fixing it will mean a lot .......hmmmmm........k its about 2 its time to slp.......

=tIrEd...BuT sTiLl ThInKiNg....haiz=

Useless and helpdess day.

2009-01-11T21:25:00.000-08:00

LitTle Mi , HeLpLeSs Mi , UsElEsS Mi ....

=JaW PaIn....=

Emo emo ~~~

2009-01-09T16:51:00.000-08:00

Woke up super super early today wor hehhee...like 630....yest la ......daddy came back with super again hahah.....5 xiang n 1 bottle x heniken ...i was thinking siao liao .......drink so much still can drink meh lolx....better not say wat i drink ....stupid jinhui i m not a jiu gui .....:P k la thanks guys lolx thanks for looking for a pub lolx.....it took us damm long la to find one haha some like geylang one i dont dare to go in ....hahah okay la...back to this morning...woke up super early did a series of childish things lolx i think mammi stun lolx......i was talking to mami about some thoughts of mind .....though she didnt agree she explain her rational....so yap must listern .....:) alright i promise to be a gd boi hahhaa.....ok enough of nonsense...i gave mum a kiss before she left i think she shock hahah...ok thats gossy right i know...to mi i think its sweet :) ...

Okay after mami left , i when out to take a walk....with my MP 3 only n a set of keys ....i found a big drain, where i can tear out my thoughts....yap .....alright liao just for that simple less that 1 mins time( learn from ppl one blehx) :) came back smiling hahaha....hahahhaa....i feel great now really :) . no worries okay ;)

=:) I sAlLoWeD My TrOuBlEs :) i M SeLfIsH lolx=

ben lai.

2009-01-09T00:14:00.000-08:00

Was so damm cold n tired + not too well in the office last night....its super super tiring as there are just so many things to following up. ...sianzation...you know when you dont feel well....you just get dammmmm frustrated with your temper ...sry friends if my mood affected you guys :( guilty ....let some ppl super worried ps....i m okay liao :) gd to go ...went home this morning ...go running this morning feel so healthy :) . Ya Ya Mr Junwen pls do not drink or eat any milk product...gastric not gd then dont anyhow eat. pangz ....like a little frien of mine....its her advice ..so take it ..she is the gastric pain expert lai de...so yap :) .....love this new blog song =) its meaningful

okayed...thanks to Qi ShEnG...again we controlled :D gd day....

=iT WiLl EnD aNd Be ReViEwEd WhEn ThE tImE Is RiGhT=

他好累了。

2009-01-07T16:52:00.000-08:00

对不起，对不起，对不起，好傻好自私啊。。。就这样吧决定了，哭了。。

=不知道=

Truth

2009-01-04T08:31:00.000-08:00

Today spending whole day playing with bryan.....He is still a kid that have room for improvement la ....Don't be too hard on him alright lolx.....k ler so tired ...earlier in the morning have to wake up at 10 am cause mami keep calling my name :P lolx...so bo bian have to wake up liao lolx...okay la pretty tired but still tahan...meanwhile went to cut off my long long hair lolx...erm.....prefer short la...oh ya i m so going to hhmmmm.......ok nvm lolx do le then stun you all :P .....alright ..nice spending the good old days chatting ....alway enjoyed ..........ok la going to slp soon also super tired...oh ya....i wont say sorry for my pass post lolx....we both know saying sorry has no use at times...lolx Then can say wat lei...??????hm???????Ya...no matter what is going on ...no matter if i m busy anot....I will always be there :) o.....K.........a...........Y....???? lolx ....

=FuRtHeR aWaY fRoM ThE TrUtH=

Last hrs of the year 2008

2008-12-31T07:26:00.000-08:00

2008 is coming soon....another like 1/2 hrs times .....Hmmmm....seriously wats there to look forward to 2009 ? Don't know i really like the coming year ...dont know y ...hehe.. felt like staying at home tonite....though abit sian tml gona work but i m still okay ....new resolution for the year ??? really nth ....eh.....maybe be happy ba thats my new year resolution ...no matter wat no matter who no matter no matter where . i ll be happy ....hehe *saracistic smile :\*

Alright happy 2009 to everyone....didnt feel like going cause i guess there are enough ppl who are going already...go also like that yap makes no differences...so decided not to go.... :) all you guys out there enjoy yourself....Like i say i dont really like this coming year so ..ya decide to do things alone this year :) guys and gals out there take care n be happy.

= :/Me No ImPoRtAnT OnE :/ =

Thinking of you.

2008-12-29T11:36:00.000-08:00

KTV today....K it out......

What are you thinking.............really...................

=~~ CaNt ThInK lE...DoNt ThInK Le ~~=

rest awhile

2008-12-28T09:31:00.000-08:00

Been busy with work lately dont really have much to blog about ....Just wann say those who are taking results. Gd luck those already taken dont be too emo over it yapz. those chiong project rem to rest enough n those who are having holiday enjoy yourself without thinking about the daily work... yap thats all.....

Far far far....its just too far...yap...Do i still rem you ??? Do i still rem you ??? Maybe one day we will just be strangers ...i can feel it coming......

=不要哭应为我不在，哭应为我不会回来。=

Birthday celeb

2008-12-17T11:07:00.001-08:00

So fast its another bday of dav and SY ...still can remember last year spending it at new yokes ...hmm today ....at tian tian ......omg, cant believe after my flu and cough just got better i going there to kill myself again ...lol...tom yam ...my favorite lol .... think i'm really kinda tired and exhausted these few days....feel so tired dont know y also nv go out much nv do must exercise also ...pretty much about work ...work also okay not too tiring also ....hmmm......maybe mentally i m just tired ba ....slping late night still my habit ...arh .....spending the beautiful morning slping omg .....so pig right ...cannot make it now a days old ppl like that one la :D....getting old le....daddy bought beer again....time for beering .........

Getting to know myself is really quite tough.......sometimes just wann move on with life not knowing so much....not thinking so much after knowing so much....enjoy my day just like everyone else on earth...ask yourself how much can you really enjoy in especially you are working...right ..those working ppl will know ;) its time to get some life...i think...i dont know y i did that.....just dont wann speak ....yap ....

=i M ThE MoSt UnImPoRtAnT PeRsOn=

say bye

2008-12-04T14:16:00.000-08:00

Wonder whats there to do now a days. Work work and also work.....last day of my shift already ..time now 6:20 am going to end another day at work ...Don't think will rest much after going home, going out with jinhui and the rest after that ...in the afternoon but morning will follow jiejie for breafast ( towards lunch time those kind of breakfast) Don't have a good stomach this days....so better don't anyhow eat.. Today i have decided to eat dinner home...wann accompany mami at home....yap ..So like my new monitor........22'' LG...

Feeling like sing K now heehe dont know y ....sudden random feeling........I dont know what i m thinking also eh .......See you properly next year le.......

=MoOdY Me SuDdEnLy=

ihateworking

2008-11-24T08:13:00.000-08:00

Was almost whole day at home pretty lazy to go anywhere since i m not meeting edmund to see my new computer at Sim Lim. Recently having problems with my gastric....Don't think is drinking ba ...as all of you know i dont drink alot :)　shouldnt be that case. i guess its more of stomach ba i dont know, not a doctor to know my body that well...Anyway has been quite mix this few days ....pretty much because of rubbish stuck in my mind ......Perhaps i m going shopping tml....anyone wann join ??? nah its okay i know you guys either working ....or exams .....or watsoever....nvm shall go alone.

What if I day I jus disappear without a trace? Change my mobile contact, change a new job, changing a new place seems a bit out of the question for now. Stop contact with the present people that I’m even in contact with. Find new friends, and start leading a new life and stuffs.To me, I feel that my personal life is so much more messed up and complicated then anything. I hate anything with the affair of the heart. Like what people say leave the picture and find a better picture that you will fit in.....Getting pretty random....so ya....disturbing people around seems to be how i m feeling now a days....so ya perhaps not appearing it the best.......... Everyone will just do either own thing ......Somethings really should'nt be asked..so dump it just sound so dump...when you just know the answer. Perhaps you just wann try your luck ba...perhaps perhaps perhaps..ZZzzzZzzZZzzzzZZZZZzzzzz

=wHaTs ThE pOiNt Of AsKiNg ?=

2008-11-18T08:59:00.000-08:00

Slept the whole day at home pretty tired after work...guess its kind tiring ba....Dont know want to go out anot ...but like so many ppl go out one all go out studying one all studying , working one all working. So who is left to go out ???? basically no one....so wats there to do other then watching online streaming show.....thats y mami ask me y slp so late n wake up late i guess you all had the answer ...waking up so early just means , waking up early to think of rubbish and nth to watch. At least in the nite there are some shows to watch........so basically this is life..working thats what i dont like......nth to do at times ...!!! =( and will start thinking rubbish....

Something you just dont wann ask....y would you feel that way ....you wont know ...just happen to have the thoughs in minds just happen to feel weird ....dont understand ...you dont even understand yourself ....bit and bit, pieces and pieces how are ppl going to understand you ....you're just retarded at time ...whats on your mind ....that shit mind of yours are just sick. i m talking about you mr Tan .....Mr Tan Qi Sheng........hahahhahahaha......crazy shit......just got a Jim Beam.....for daddy ...lets share and finish it okay :) going to drink ...n stop the thinking...bye for now...

=WhAtS ThErE tO tHiNk=

irriatedV2

2008-11-08T16:45:00.000-08:00

Blog a short para....but dont feel like posting it up.....ya....just put in the draft folder ba....Slept late last night couldnt really go into sleep ......tired and yet frustrated.....sorry jie...updated your Itouch wrongly =X.... and also yap thanks to some ppl ...thanks ah~~~~Working again...raining morning to hard to get to work....zZZzzZzzZz.....its time for some self reflection...Know cant help....help cant make things better....Feel like going to stay over at the beach alone overnite...anyone wan join ????......nahx...just kidding wann go alone :) .

=tHe fRaGiLe YoU=

Irritating day....

2008-11-07T08:27:00.000-08:00

Interrupted slp ...woke up so early in the morning....mami called ....asking me things .......sry mami but i really dont like the feeling being awaken so early in the morning ....slp pretty late in the morning....Had red wine with daddy before slp...not too bad....Had a glass in the morning as well be4 food =X.....After that watch my dan chao fan....Finish my last ep in the afternoon then go for lunch with jin hui....only out awhile today cause tml still need to work though its a sat but still..........

End of another day....sometimes i really wonder y a reply like that can make me feel so retarded the whole day ...perhaps its the kind heck care heck care feeling ba.....so thats the case y bother to ask right...sometimes really puzzle me about the things i do.....i hate myself to fullest at times....really ....

=If I cAn RuN i WaNt To RuN OuT oF ThE WoRd=

leaving for awhile

2008-10-31T13:38:00.000-07:00

.....hmmmm.............sorry.

=ItS TiMe To LeArN=

Office times.

2008-10-29T13:53:00.000-07:00

Currently in office.....4:54 am..Many of you should be sleeping at home with your cozy bed having your dreams.....sigh still at work....n its like damm cold can...cant stand the air con now....plus this point of time have gastric pain T.T . sianz...Pretty tired cause afternoon didn't sleep alot. After work went home to rest but didnt sleep alot then wake up already....Last day of night shift for this week......aiya going to go home in the morning le still gastric pain...worst here dont have much to eat....Meji crackers ....seems to feel weird after eating it ....heck le at least got something to bite.....lets see wat is installed for me tml ....update again ba.......

I hate this feeling ....i really do .....can it just go away....maybe is will just stay...just like menses it goes away after a couple of days...seems painful and tiring ....haiyo...sian....sighz.....nvm tml will be better day......okay its today will be a better day......wont be home early !!! going for night life!!!!

=ImPoRtAnT tHiNg NeVeR SeEmS tO Be ImPoRtAnT UnTiL ThEy ArE LoSt=

Work

2008-10-28T01:12:00.001-07:00

I think i very petty this couple of days.....So just ignore ....i mend wat i say ...so i will do wat i said....no disturbz. Shall find back my drinking night........ciaoz

=WhAt WiLl MiSuNdErStAnDiNg LeAd To ???=

sorry.

2008-10-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

The below content might not be appropriate so if you are not prepared please noted not to continue reading…You might agree might not its doesn’t matter. Everything is over……….. please don’t be emo about this.

All of a sudden I started to understand things. Understand why I m feeling certain things certain image certain emotions. After days of observation and thinking through I finally knew what it was all about. Perhaps it you in particular don’t feel it ba perhaps you don’t remember or don’t really keep track of it as you are too tired to realize things. Or maybe everything from me have made you too comfortable to the extend you don’t feel it. After that answer, I knew nothing was remembered. Perhaps it’s the entertaining sentence ba perhaps things didn’t meet their deadline. Its alright….it was never mend to be an important date or even an important meeting anyway. That was all how I felt, really…just another sentence that gives away to ppl hey I m not free other time ba. Perhaps I was just another tom, dick or harry that will ask from time to time, hey are you free? Let go for a movie? Not free nvm la its okay ? ….Does any of this sentence reminds anyone of you anything ? I Guess ….just words from your Hi bye friends…. I feel different because I knew things were not the same as compared…that’s all along what is going on I guess….So many ppl will be around for you….why should a me be around. Time to time you meet new ppl I guess I m just the passer by that is going to stop here ba. Your new friends will pull you along. So many times you proved that my presumptions were right. Maybe at times I don’t understand what is going through ba…time have changed ….since the last time chat so much even when we are so not free…..perhaps schools….projects……took out most of your time … your precious time….the time you use to do important things the time you use to think of more important things….Things that you can even give up your sleep from time to time to meet your deadlines. Things that were much much much more important then anything you had…..silly things( in my point) that you have promised yourself , promised so many other ppl. Maybe you cant….you just cant ( as I have always knew )….Maybe you are still trying I don’t know …just saying if you cant then don’t waste your time trying for now cause in the end you just will cry over it again and again….Maybe it’s the so many times I didn’t tell you all this ( my fault on this part ) cant help It. Sometimes really hope can share but the feeling just feel so different from the pass….. I use know things from when it happen might not be the 1^st but not the last…..somehow I feel that I m like quite last to know it now a days. Perhaps there isn’t a point in telling me now a days…I need to find it out myself…be it read blog, be it feelings….be it when I see you online or etc etc……..thats also the reason why I say hey you have grown up …..presence of me doesn’t change much……. Maybe I don’t understand you ba….after so long , went through so much I guess nah …still don’t …….. I admit i m a friend thats difficult to understand ….at time I don’t understand myself….so don’t be too bothered if you don’t really understand me up to this point of time……thanks for the so many time being there to smile. The very things that I did (helping ya) …was done at my own will so don’t need to feel bad about anything…….. Its not breaking a promise thats sad…its not even remembering the promise feels more sad……. …………. ……………………………sorry can never change facts.

=An EnD of SoMeThInG=

thinking~~~~

2008-08-02T02:54:00.000-07:00

Not worth the care......

*NeVeR SeRiOuS AbOuT LiFe*

Ask == solve problem

2008-07-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

How to ask ...???????haiz.....

*ItS HaRd To AsK :(*

work n work....

2008-07-25T09:28:00.000-07:00

Started real work ....my computer is here.....oh oh so many things to learn at work ....perhaps its just so long of not learning things makes it abit hard to pick up but it shouldnt be a problem ....just afraid that i cant keep up with the job as there are too many things to do ....many many services that i need to do n remember ...procedure i have to rem at the tips of my hands ....sometime i wonder should i go into IT line as a job....long term one....its hard to keep up with paste ....i alway though i was suitable to do any work .....Only after a few days of real work i realised i m not actually gd in communitcation ...its a hard to to let ppl understand wat you are trying to say especially when you dont a clear mind to work .....as well as a gd communitcation skill. Haiz still got alot to learn.....:(

Its hard to tell you how much you need to know.....Sometimes you just got to understand able to move out of the comfort zone will make you more mature in thinking things and also to have a better life....thats all along what you really have to know....Being inside your own circle doesnt mean you already have a complete life....its just that you dont dare to move out of it .....thats also sometimes y you think miserable being alone...life cant alway just stuck at the pass....it doesnt help to just stay in the pass...it really doesnt...wanting to stay like this forever is impossible...nth is forever....today might just be the last day you see sun set or will it be the last day you will wake up ...nth is just forever ....noted this point .....just think about it in the end izzit worth it.....to choose the wrong thing.......

*BeYoNd ThE HoPeS Of HoPe*

start work lo~!~!~

2008-07-17T03:12:00.002-07:00

Start work le....i guess its the same for most ba the 1 st few days of work is so erm.....bored n all ....got alot of things to do helpdesk btw ....alright ba...just that there are alot to learn not just to those i have studied but also to those i havent really see before ....i guess its tiring ba my 1st day of work already learn quite a number of things already ....tired but understand more & know more of wat i need to ahead n need to know + if i wan to study i have to get myself well prepared at least for the money n knowlegde part......wait till i start shift think it will be more tired ba.....neeed to learn fast at least i know what i need to know to work...troubleshooting computer.....

Will you be though of ? will you be needed? will you be remembered? Something i wonder y...its hard to example....Maybe its just time...difting and difting ...maybe one day it just go off n there will be no reply. Off you go ..Nothing will leave behind...forgotten....sometimes i felt better not even knowing where the hell izzit where the hell did it go to. Happened so much..though so much....wondering so much............felt so much...........its all about choice ...one day it will be just be too tired to continue.....end.............

*iTs AlL AbOuT ChOiCe*

ORD loh!

2008-06-08T19:45:00.000-07:00

Can still remember the happenings 2 years ago....was still at paris ris ....now most of my batch ppl ORD ...those june ppl ...really happy ...having the happiness in me i also felt abit empty ....having not directions ...since there were very little choice of things i can do ....job? study ? thats all...I need a job like 1 months time....thinking of how can i meet the objective in 1 months time ....seems so tough .....1 things i learn in this 2 years nth is impossible ...so i m going make it happened.......meanwhile i wann relax ....i wann take my time to rest as much ....cause after this the paste of this phase of life is going to move very fast... i might not catch anyone during this phase of life ...the monotoness life of working....anticipated to see wat is install for me ahead.....i think it would be somethings new an experience long to await.........

Not everything just end with orh or anything will satisfy a person....guess sometimes ppl do feel that they are being agitated at time....have this ppl actually think back why this happens ....perhaps its hard to know y the others agitated you...you done nothing wrong just that your luck is not there...Its hard to say or put it in words either ...you just feel that the whole is busy ....no time for you n demand for more ....you just feel that the whole dont treat you gd enough......people are just keeping distance from you ....even the person closest to you are not sharing things to with you. Just feel like they are storing things inside their brain not tell you a single piece of news....It gets you so irriated that you just cant concentrate anything you do.....Feeling so tired to keep up with everyone's paste.......hard to please the whole world i guess....Somethings are just not ment to be said.....the truth just dont seem to be always right....lies might be the best to keep the situation what it is now .......if now is peace y change the peace into something........More words will just mean more trouble .... =X .

*AlOnE FaCiNg ThE wOrLd.....ALONE*

2 More Book in to end

2008-05-18T22:17:00.000-07:00

Its another booking out from tekong...had fun this week but its was tired....getting closer to the date ...however i dont a thing no excitement no nth....perhaps thats wat they call post ORD synd ba........With friends to entertain my life inside its seems rather fast that the 6 weeks training is coming to an end soon ...guess i ll miss the days with you guys ba ...thanks ....

Why would you care so much.??? Why would you bother so much??? ...Why should you even bother??? who are you to bothered.......???Dont Understand ??? Its alway me...

*JuSt WaNn DriNk*...ThE dRiNkInG SeAsOn...

back from tekong since last book out

2008-04-30T18:44:00.000-07:00

Back from my BMT training ...okay the training details will not be disclosed but then i would say its fun..:)....havent been blogging ...getting busy with my LEAVEs and then off to tekong on 21 april liao just back not long from book out last nite kinda tired as there were alot of things to do .....guess this recos will end soon in 5 weeks time ....after that its ORD loh...!!!! so fast a 2 years course is ending lo....i guess its time when my little brothers going in le ...take care dude hope you will all be able to cope with your army life and do well inside ....bare in mind also take care of yourself when you are inside.....very easy injured de... so those going in take care wor ....book out wat to do alot alot of things to do heeheee...thought inside is quite tiring but its fun i would say ...really .....all to best guys ......

Oh on the way back to singapore from tekong i saw the backview of the boat ...moving away from tekong ...its truely an amazing scene..it was really windy ......!!!!too bad sgt dont allow us to seat behind hehe.....knew alot of bunk mates again...my 2nd BMT lol....

*LoVe ThE StArS In TeKoNg.....MiSs ThE MaInLaNd.....LiFe Of CoNtRiCtIoN*

coming to the end

2008-04-01T08:35:00.000-07:00

Time is so fast its just coming to an end of my National Service liability....A frien of mine just wrote a ORD msg recently not long ago ..i would say its well written, he really wrote out how i feel about my place or should i say about the organisation ba...time is almost up..i guess i have a lot to write about ba , as the things i gone through but i guess i ll put it to the very last day before i ll publish the dirty side of everyone n everything..Talking about the things that have happened since i last blog actually nth much as i m busy with bball in the week ends and work during the week days ...thats about it ba nth much to update you guys who are currently still reading my blog ( hardly think of anyone ) about another more 70 + more days i ll be out of this organisation ..... retire ba i guess n there i go for my transition into someone else.

Talk about what i m going to do. As i m clearing leave n then going back to tekong soon....guess it would be rather exciting ba. I have nv really atteneded the full cause of it lolx ...getting to try it out soon. Last few weeks at tekong...should be fun i guess ????

Seriously dont know wat is on my mind sometimes. Have you ever think of just waking up from your slp one day and find that you are dead or something. Might be rather interesting ba, sometimes you just know its time you have to start thinking about things again...Maybe its just humans ba ...finding things to trouble yourself.

Sometimes your mind is just playing with you, as the memories just flow through the brains of yours making you lost.Thinking about wat should have happened and wat you can change ...which eventually changes your mood...Would you just face something that have broken you ????Would you give that someone another chance????

-KnOtS ThAt WiLl NeVeR UnTiE-

saw her again

2008-03-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

Today was short never the less...i was alright ...wasnt really a gd day i got lost my friend's unbrella ....miss the bus....n etc etc...finish eating then go home le after the event in camp...met ele awhile walk walk then went home.......

I knew i was you....i m was sure i saw you .....you n only you .....walk away like things nv happened....so swift so fast...like you just gona run away........y run? y so bothered?...........sometimes i really dont understand...........what was on your mind ????

-bRoKeN LoVeRs ArE LiKe ToTaL StRaNgErS-

random blog

2008-03-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

Today was a rushy day ....had so many things to settle in camp that i hardly think of resting.....was counting down my ORD ...wow to my supprise less then a 100 absolute day which means i m going to end my nation service damm soon.....had some plans already though i was hard to deicide i know wat to do already .....coming about my workmates in camp .....cant stand then just one sentence ....childish and spoilt ....nth much .... Was out during the week end n pass week ends as well ....last week was fun ....being with my little frien who accompanied me throughout my days in TP .....i guess its been the same now ba...thanks for everything.....

How can you straighten out things when you dont even wan to think about it or talk about it....how can you pretend nth was going on ........how can you just live on with life like that without thinking......i wonder........maybe somethings shouldnt be in memories .....nv ment to be.....perhaps things are just going fine in the surface but messy in the hearts.........

-rAnDoM ThOuGhS-

lost trust once again..

2008-02-24T09:15:00.001-08:00

Woke up early in the morning to breakfast at Mac with jiejie….then later come home slp liao …slp so late last nite then I cannot tahan liao …woke up by a call from stella to watch movie …don’t know wann go anot as I might need to go back camp for duty but then don’t that stupid guy will come anot so bo bian have to stay at home until theres no call until 5 pm …gd enough he came back to camp…so ya went to PS to watch “Fools Gold” quite a nice show ….pretty entertain show, though its abit stupid but pretty much entertain the whole cinema. After that went home to after eating my dinner ..

Sometimes its really hard to trust friends….hard to meet up with expectation….hard to believe that there are everlasting friends that will fulfill their roles as real friends….they would always say I’ll be there for you I’ll promise this and that but sometimes they just can’t help it but to let you down…its more of like you let me down I let the other person down n I care for you more n you care for the other person more. This is wats its all about…so what are actually friends called for ???? when needed....小气的我。。。that’s me

-HaTe Me, NoT GonNa WaTcH-

army life ending

2008-02-23T07:21:00.000-08:00

Army is coming to an end soon actually....pretty hard to think of wat to do after that but then should be working ba hard to study as i think sch is expensive n i m not into NTU or NUS so yap...work awhile then see things are ok ....anyway life in camp is pretty much alright this few week as i m just working on some reports and etc like a old bird...there only doing those impossibe reports and etc...hmm...not really tough already as its coming to an end liao ...just hope not to get into any trouble lo....anyway life still goes on..

I might not know wats wrong but i guess its hard to no know wats going on......you trust you think you wait......you see you feel you break.....maybe its really time to take a rest. if things dont go right how .?...if nth is going to be right how.?.......

-cArE HoW MuCh-

chinese new year 2008

2008-02-08T11:06:00.000-08:00

hmm...Happy chinese new year to everyone....its abit late but then ok la still alright cause if you are happy everyday is chinese new year ma!! right?.... k la this year not much of a mood i think dont know why....08 should be a abtter year ...maybe ...might be ....should be lol hehe it will be !!!

I guess i didnt really visit alot of place chu 1 n chu 2 lol dont know y this year dont feel like visting maybe casue i just had a serious food poisoning so ya lo ....dont feel like going to anywhere to visit, just wann stay at home or go movies .....watch mostly the big shows.....CJ7 Kong fu dunk...and ....in about less then 24 i m watching ah long PTE LTD ya ...lol i guess they have not story line or good plot but then i guess they are made to make the crowd laugh ba lol.... nice shows for the 1st 2 i dont know about the last one though heard alot of of bad rating but then should be okay lo ...cause i m going to dom n eric ....i think seeing them enough le lol funny enough le lol....ok la erm...time to slp le ba i guess 3 am le omg so fast ....

Thought its chinese new year ....somethings nv change .....somethings can nv be new ...really ....its tough ......thought ppl say its time...but its proving me that time brings you to nth sometimes.......

-HaPpY ChInEsE NeW YeAr 08-

2008-01-30T07:12:00.000-08:00

time passes really fast so fast until my so call big day comes again ......oh....guess nth much for this year la as usually like other years lo see ppl send me a few msgs then ya ends the day ....anyway wishlist ....b/m

1.) family happy
2.) got more money
3.) ORD
4.) maybe study
5.) getting the things i like
6.) a PSP slim (white ) lol which i have one (black big)
7.) a cake to eat
8.) meeting up with more friends
9.) grow smarter
10.) you happy

ok thats all for the year abit too much but this are the things that i really hope for n wish for. Guess sometimes there are just too much things you wan in life ....But i guess its still not too hard to fulfill this little wishes ...i hope hehee k ler have been quite busy n tired to update this blog .....so tired at work that you jsut wann come home to slp on your beautiful bed ....ok bye for now ...

-CaN i WiSh FoR MoRe ??? LiKe .........-

sick of army n balaalallalala

2008-01-15T05:37:00.000-08:00

....tired ...just a word ....the best word to discrible how i m now .....5 days of extra work ...makes me really tired....i dont say anything about my work ...its confidential and its bull shit. Why do ppl alway say they are tired...? Dont know izzit memories ..???? might be , izzit work ???? might be, everything is a might be so i guess its hard to say or tell wat each of us are thinking and wat are the things that are making us tired....runing away might be best for everyone i guess....probably thats they way ppl find answer ...answer that will solve they problems or maybe they will just run from it forever.....and move on with life ...perhaps perhaps perhaps......

When will things every get straight.........when will ppl keep their promises ........when will tought life end........when will everything come to and end ....when ....its just a matter a time.....

-TrY tO FaCe It-

post chirstmas post

2007-12-25T10:29:00.000-08:00

Its been a day of staying at home the whole day.....its bloggy time again... its been sometimes since i really have this feeling of wanting to blog something out.....pretty much cause of the things that happened this few days....problems.....enjoyment.....gathering.........dreams......gossipes...........etc etc too many to lay down. Its been quite somtimes since i really went orchard to walk for that amount of time ..Like 2 year ago or something since i walk from bugis to somewhere ....yesterday was like walking from bugis to orchard i mean chistmas eve....so long since i have this kind of long walking sessions....thanks eric for that hehee.....ok think should start from my dec holiday ba the whole of dec was meeting up with ppl.

i guess some friends really miss them esp my sec sch buddies like those i have long to see ...all saw on one day ..that was the like dont know how many days since i last seen them ....really miss them alot we had alot of fun at sakura on sat 22 dec 07 everyone spilling their stories in camp talking about life is sec sch so many many things we chatted on that day missed those days where i have only memories of joy .....memories that will keep me laughing when i m with this group of buddies ....After that we had like 8 hrs of KTV session....thought some left ....and in the end only got 4 ppl but then it was fun we sing many many songs thought we are not supper singers i think we enjoyed alot of songs playing and sing......

I guess this session wont be everyday thats y we misses this sessions so much....i really enjoyed that nite thought it was just a short night it was like damm fun....nth about sad feelings all...A gd session on that day ...i felt i have went back to sec sch man...haha missed.....

Ok talking about yesterday now ....chirstmas eve..After work at office went off home then later on met eric at tampines to return his SCV box...then we head to bugis....oh ya bugis is not that ppl mountain ppl see as orchard i think .....pretty quiet also anyway we were heading to nation library after buying the chirstmas spray ....oh man eric has a bad memory haha keep forgetting things....so i have to remind him that he needs to return his books ....so in the end we returned the books ..then later which we walk to bugis ....to meeting dom and ivan ......on our way there we though we were walking the right way .....omg we took short cut in the end it was a dead end...so we took a long cut instead lol.....how blur can we be right......

But thought we still managed to reach orchard to wishma there....around there la dont knwo how to spell penregon or soemthing lol...(paiseh ang mo bad) walk around until we found seats yeah!!then later we put down our things then wait for ppl finish dinner.......so we gathered together and walk to Ngee Ann city to meet up with ivan there ....we were walking like zombies in resident evil hehe cause why ....the whole orchard was like crowd lol as usual every year nv fails .....there sure crowed with not just bangala .....china ppl this time.....and their unique smell almost killed dom....lol she was just standing beside them....so in the end due to the crowd we went to subway....seat down play PSP lol......omg waited until 12 la then go out cause no point n our motives are just to spray that stupid thing......

it was just like 2 years ago .....can still remember that evey little thing we were there spraying bangala omg lol leon was like an idiot back at that time....spraying almost everyone he see esp chio bu...haha...hmm....just that 2 years ago had more ppl ba ....i still have the photo on that day hehe....anyway we still manage to finish up the bottles of sprays then walk to bugis send ppl home n go home.....reach home 3 + n i was really tired already so slp after which .......

i guess this are just little things that happened this 2 days....Thought or flashing memories this few days ....about so many things in life....work , army blah blah blah ....after army i guess must work le.....thinking of studying but there are so many things to look into it ....so see how ba....friends some have problems i cant solve.....mmmm....its about individual sometimes...nth i can change the fact that i m not god.....enjoyment....i really enjoyed myself the time with my friends .....hope they will alway be around ...in my life thanks for being around in my entire life whoever that i have known. learned from all of you in whatever ways....dad going operation in jan ..i just hope he will be fine . etc....thought its not me this time but then i really really hope everything goes well .....worried about papa.......Camp.....i m left with so many things to do in camp ...i think i ll be busy like a dead pig when i go back camp.......some friends that i havent been contact or missing out their names n all i seriously hope i can get to see all of them.....guess this are all new year resolutions ba ...i really hope 2008 is gd gd gd year ...which actually not too bad as well in 2007 cause nth really happened in that whole enitre year ......2008....looks like a year full of supprises i guess hope to see new things ......

Lastly i hope things are really fine for friends out there okay....i dont know who wans to share things but i m sure a listerner this time .....i hope you are find my little frien cork up in life are just part and parcel....its hard to alway wan things our way but i m sure you will get things of your liking someday ...we have to be optimistic to move on in life..or life will just be depress...look forward (xiang qian kan) heheh you should understand the jk right ...k la not too fun abit cold...haha hope you can cheer up about things....somethings is better to let it go with the flow thats when new things comes in ..i believe your heart is as strong as your character...i saw you grow i saw you becoming who you are now ....saw your cry saw your laugh saw your every enjoyment and sadness....so dont give up in life about little things ....they will just stop or slow down your movements in life.Just want you to know what you wann to choose in life what you really wan sometimes we just keep ourselves in the nut shell thinking that thats the best way to solve the problem..which doesnt help cause in the end we are just avoiding problems thats coming our way....Alway think for those who care for you okay...Be a happy person like the very 1st time i saw you ....you will alway smile at me like money dropping from the sky, like you are going to get married next year , like you have everything in life.... this last little bit of my today's blog is all for you ok :) cheer all the way up ba....i think time tells everything....time is the main factor of all problem isnt it :)..so its just now that things are not smooth ...things will be bright ahead...asure you ok? hehe hao le i should end the long long blog here....everyone
happy coming year ba ....;) gd day......

-EnD Of ThE BlOg.....MeMoRiEs Of 2007~~~~-

Xmas 2007

2007-12-24T11:18:00.000-08:00

xmas has came .....end of another year hope everyone with the end of this year will enjoy themselves the next very year....enjoyed this xmas eve ....thanks to all who was with me really enjoy thanks all accompanies....you know you arez....thanks & a very very happy chirstmas to all...

-AlL i WiSh FoR iS JuSt To Be HaPpY...你好傻。。。-

what are things ahead

2007-12-13T08:40:00.000-08:00

So fast another year is coming to an end counting down....its like 1 whole damm year have pass....have i done anything.....Dont know....everything is about SAF ....hmmm....after 3 months of MC even more dont feel like going back to camp but then stilll.......somethings you just got to finish it......160++++ more days to go .....hmm...actually counting to it its like quite fast also time pass so fast....i was just wondering how are friends doing...hope all of you are alright and looking forward to the coming new year...should be a gd year 2008....hope it would be a year of happiness and joy.....hope all of you happy okay? ...

-wHaT CaN i SaY....I sTiLl Do...-

bored

2007-11-08T01:55:00.001-08:00

SaD & sIaN

*ChAnGeD yOuR WaYs*

MC days

2007-09-29T12:24:00.000-07:00

Its been a boring week.....staying at home mostly everyday ......physio is the only thing that make me feeling going out for a walk other then that its just about slp wake up and watch tv thats all......cant really move both hands but can trying moving abit here and there.....just pretty tired throughout the week.....dont know why.....i guess its all about the slping ba ...slping too much isnt a gd thing.....hmm....+ i guess its pretty boring life...but hai hao lo......

Know you are really sad.....hmm...i hope things aren't too bad everything have to go on....think inside you feels pain thought nth shows....feelings of sadness is too strong to hide....you are much stronger than before.....jia you ok 我希望你会开心一点 thought i know some things cant help but i ll be around ...........

*NoThInG Is FoR CeRtAiN...EvEn FoReVeR LoVe*

MC...

2007-09-18T00:29:00.000-07:00

MC....staying at home.....rotting after my operation.....quite an experience to go through though there were some weird feelings before i go in the operating threather but everything was alright thank god those doctors were nice...etc.....

i still cannot really type with both hands and do things with 2 hands its kinda hard doing alot of things with just one hand....but its still alright la....can still survive with juz that 1 hand :)...feeing kinda lazy at home.. i think got to start thinking of things to do after ORD...study ???? workin ????its just wondering in my mind....

thoughts shouldnt change your mind....its all about sacrifiying not compromising.......Still u changed......

*HapPiNeSs iS iN YoUr HaNd DoNt LEt FlY AwAy AgAiN...*

Ops Day

2007-08-28T18:16:00.000-07:00

Hm...I guess in another less then 8 hours time i ll be entering the theather...Feel abit weird about this thing but i guess its the day ba....have to go one ...have to be inside somehow....You ask me wats on my mind how i can only tell you blank quite blank.......so fast its the day...i guess all i can say is wish me luck my friends and folk......:)...cIaOz

Last nite i had a dream......its just so sweet ...Everything in the dream...the things , people, the promises, everything inside was so real really so real ...basically everything i just dont want to wake up from the beautiful dream...i saw this scene...i love the scene simply i knew was a beautiful dream ....i woke up......i knew i was a beautiful one though i didnt last too long i really missed it so much....i guess was something thats i missed alot, alot alot.......

*DrEaM SlEePiNg In ThE PaST*

2007-08-24T13:57:00.000-07:00

Was busy the whole week.....with my camp things have to hand over my things soon...Cause i m going for my ops lo.....my computer spoit then bo bian have to go make then so went sim lim with edmund on friday....was still busy during the week cause have to prepare for next coming event.....aiya alway have so many things to do i think i realli looking forward to the break at home, at least i can slp at home. When to St james today with nelson and gang dance until i think my legs also got no feelings liao so went home after reaching about 3 +...just reach home now kinda slpy le think goign to slp le.... guess most of you having exams as its exam period..do well k jia you too ....all the best.

Kinda having this odd feeling about the ops...but i guess its just something i have to go through eventually....nvm just take it as another of my qi sheng li xian ji ba..........hmm...went hospital 2 times in army life....really cool right haiz this is life.....how can make this mess better ???

*I WaNt To DiE =) *

Army Is Fuck up

2007-08-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

ok i shaved my hair to a short and decent botak...dont ask y i shaved cause ...i m just ti ki ....wonndering wats the meaning ask those who know ba....i get hook up with mami's coughing syrup.........not that i cant slp or i m overdose medic....i m just having a coughs thats all...just that the medi is sweet and make me feel drowy...for some extend i like it :) so its okay.....time is coming closer to my ops...hope everything will be alright ba...sure things are alright....wats more its all covered by SAF.... ..waiting for my long break.....soon....very soon.......

*MiX uP WiTh ReAliTy AnD FaNtAsTy......because of you*

days of our lifes

2007-08-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

time passes things are forgotten.....lifes changes for you and for me...somethings can nv be choosen again....not a chance.......perhaps this is life.....

*i m glad*

how

2007-08-05T08:56:00.000-07:00

Met up with justin yesterday....cant believe i waited for an hour + for someone to come from TM....aiyo yo ..Really "on time leh".....hmmm havent seen you for sooooo damm long still the same things....lazy to go out....fatter le same as me ......thought you side life is better.....its rather the same ....mount and dismount kinda thing...dont take too hard ba 300 more day to go ....
Out with nelson and rest today for bballl...then walk around AMK hub...another end of the week. Fast week next week hopefully i dont need to work OT again....Stupid leg foot rot again argh....damm...nv go field still will rot....sianz...gotta slp soon tml book in...

*HaTe To HaTe BuT I HaTe.....*

time past

2007-07-28T12:40:00.000-07:00

At home da whole day......sleep and sleep growing to be like a pig....its okay most army guys do that for hobby...so yap .....went out with travis they all to watch late nite movie...ALONE.....quite a okay movie....consider so many retarded ghost stories i think this is one of them with a bit more plot ba. Spending sats at home is abit bo liao bu i guess i dont have much activities this few week ...considering i have to prepare for the big thing coming up soon after the annivsery dinner of 9 div....dont know not realli prepare ...abit scare also actually ...its okay 1 day and its gona be over.........

Moods these days are rather wild.....something simple might just trigger it off izzit me or izzit just normal......no answers for that question actually..i gotta get something to spices life up....dread life .........but then peaceful i guess....its been quite a while having to pass the nites like this......life have to move on....right..

*WhAtS On YoUr MiNd???*

army ah army when are you ending

2007-07-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

End of another week end.....hmm didnt really go out this 2 days sat and sun....sat slp mostly the whole day tired came back after badminton game with ah jie then come home slp le.....at nite eric came me house take game...had a nice chat just the days in poly chating about life in NS...hope you are happy bro...
When out in the afternoon after some decision made to go AMK for pool......after that went shopping at AMK hub.....then go dinner le...after that go home.........another end of the week le start of a new week.....soon a new month.....

I CaNt PiEcE ThInGs ToGeThEr
WiTh ThEsE EyEs Of BlAcK AnD WhItE
i TrIeD My BeSt
ThErE Is NOtHiNg I cAn Do FoR YoU
ThE WaY i UsEd To Be....
SoMeThInGs ToUcHeD mY hEaRt..
SoMeThInGs MaDe Me FeEl CoNteNt...
DiD i UnDeRsTaNd MySeLf ?
PlEaSe DoN't Go AnYwHeRe.
I nEvEr MeAnT tO hUrT YoU
i WaS RuNnInG fRoM EmOtIoNs I wAn'T rEaDy FoR.
BuT WhAt Am I SuPpOsEd To Do NeXt TiMe,
iF i DoN't HaVe YoU tO dEpEnD On ?
PlEaSe DoN't Go AnYmOrE

*hMmMmMmm....... : '(*

st james...

2007-07-20T13:47:00.000-07:00

Was busy the whole day didnt take notice of the time n it just pass fast..until i didnt even know its time to go home...rather busy the whole week so didnt know notice its the end of the week....maybe time i going fast again ...dont knwo when will time stop at a moment again.....hope not i wan time faster pass things faster get over with....

Went vivo with nick....st james....quite a nice club.....ok ba danced....but not enough.......!!! wan to dance somemore but its okay nick still gota go back camp tml...so shall keep him back ...didnt really drink actually i had new experience....wouldnt say totally addicted to clubbing or wat...just a new experience thats all.......

* 好想你*

weird weird feeling

2007-07-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

Today is weird.....i met ben in the morning to take back my things ....then bought lao jie's lunch then go home le......stay aty home da whole day.....dont understand when i developed this kind of feeling ...i dont wan stay at home....either do i wan to go out .....contridicting....dont know wat was really on my mind but then i have headache da whole day so its okay just my whole day....monday gona have alot of things coming up...haiz.....

Troubled by thoughts......troubled by memories......cant realli differential alot of things.....getting to be really grumby about many things....i dont know many people are starting to change.....perhaps i dont know how much me myself changed.....i really wan the last time life back....i cant realli get it back ....how i wish i could change alot of things in life...i hope i can stop time at a certain moment ....seems to be living the pass .....i cant see the future...dont wann hope for future....many things change towards the future.....i dont wan anyone to change...but i m not god i cant decide that....................

*hArD tO pLeASe AlL oF yOu...iS nOt tHaT i dOnT uNdErStAnD ........HaIz. take me away*

How

2007-07-11T08:35:00.000-07:00

Its another 1/2 a week before the week is going to end soon.......i guess i m going meet up with arron they all for bball this week....was on some chemical deference training today wearing some stupid MOP 4 suit tml still have to wear it for some gas chamber thing......thats all for the week...oh my gd day my work cannot finish le..how...? nah its okay like wat kevin tell me y work so hard for army ??? maybe its the only way to make me feel dead.....

Kana pang seh my fualt....
Invitation not send out my fualt...
Things not done my fualt.....
Dont answer you my fualt.....
Dont understand friends my fualt....
blah blah blah.................

its always my fault.......
*i HoPe I dIe In ThE OpErAtIoN ThEaThEr...TaKe Me AwAy!!!!*

ji de by zhang hui mei

2007-07-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

Went to aishing bday on friday...hmmm pretty tired and sian after that.....didnt drink much didnt really enjoy alot cause a lot of my friends were involve in army stuff so.....sigh stay with aishing and her bf and david...but this is the 1st chalet i didnt had to set up fire and i hav bed to slp....hmm.......

Next day went out again then come hm watch shrek 1 and 2....sigh went to watch die hard the next day with nick at marina...then later go home liao tiring week end not that i didnt write things down just that there are quite many things happeninng this week end and im tired le...so ya ....long word cut it short....pretty tiring week end with lots of thing coming after this week end think gotta busy again....haix...hate the army shit....

i found this old song of zhang hui mei and suddenly like it so deciced to put it on my blog......Suddenly had many thought this week end also....was talking to ai shing abt her relationship...guess sometimes relationship just bland after days pass......someone ask me should i should i.........i dont know should i but my heart tells me i shouldnt..........................

*CaNt ReMeMbEr WhO SaId hE/ShE wIlL aLaWyS LoVe Me*

friends

2007-07-05T01:56:00.000-07:00

Went out last nite to celebr eric's bday.....went boon keng for steamboat. had a great time eating ..chat, talk cork and all just like the last comm alway meet up to eat dinner and talk rubbish together....during the dinner belle said : sometimes i feel forgotten.....i guess i agree with her......sometimes you are just not in the eyes of anyone......dont worry belle i think there are morning people that remembers ya...at least friends celeb your bday with ya...i had none.....

Had my off day today ....on a 1/2 day off so morning went to CMPB for despatch then went home....went back to office to sign my off pass after which ahead home....Was actually planing of going out...end up again.........staying at home.....went back home....took a bit of cake went to slp.......Guess i m alway asking things on the wrong time....either that or maybe things are just fated ba.....If you see this....dont say sry.....dont feel guilty....many times people just tell me the same thing.....excuses covering up excuses...for that i guess i wouldnt really ask le....you ask ba.......me to tired to ask anything........

Planings will not always go smooth...wat you plan might not alway come out the way you wan it to be....it just tells you you have to plan better the next time.....i think i not suit to be a planner ba.......i totally hate the feeling about this.......seriously.....thats y i think drinking is my best hoppie...just feels better after drinking....but might drink less these days....bleed while i was in the loo...stomach not right to drink.....

*YoU HuRt A FrIeNd*

Drink and drink

2007-06-30T09:45:00.000-07:00

Was at nick's party last nite....hmm.....reach there in the end nil of my sec sch friends ard nick's friends instead are around....bo bian cook abit then eat abit....until the rest come had a gd chat....hmmm whole nite just pass like eat and drinking.....pass my limits again...finished a bottle of white wine all by myself......

Went out to vivo today....wanted to watch movie end up too many ppl...haiz ....sigh.....eat shop go home.......tml is another long day....gd day........my week ended like that......

*when can you ever stop drinking Mr Tan..........?*

screwed

2007-06-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

A fine day a fine day ......went to check up my shoulder this morning.... screwed......big prob...hmm....nah ...its okay i guess i m more or less prepared.....cant be too bothered le.....wo lei le.....lei dao wo si ba.....:)

*y cant someone die early when they wan tooo*

end of the week

2007-06-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

today was the end of the week had a tired day cause today got event....went home not too early as everything needs someone to keep....go home like 6 + after that reach home finish dinner went to air port with daddie to fetch my sis back from China...hmm.....she brought quite a number of things back for the family and mostly eat stuff...bought for lao pa nui er hong....maybe should try since lao pa havent open it. These week was quite long to me dont know y
It seems like the week will nv end maybe cause tired of work liao ba dont know how come feeling like that maybe too much work also....sometimes work is just too much until cannot handle. Guess i need to have my rest during these week end cause next wk i ll be on 2 duties.....

*Cant think !!!*

A tired and lazy week

2007-06-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

This week is a lazy week...didnt feel gd last nite....having to wake up 2 am in the morning....had a bad stomach ache until 3 +....didnt had a gd slp so went office late...couldnt get myself to wake up.....didnt even wanted to go camp ..but then bo bian have to wake up on time....didnt slp late this week...just drop dead after coming home.....dont know y i m so damm tired also ....no reason just dont feel like going back to camp just wann rest and slp at home....tired of the work in camp abit bored of the work....hmm....guess just got to moviate myself to work.........hmmm...after the 1 year mark feel super lazy le also dont know wat im thinking.. haiz i hate thinking and thinking.........just get me no where .........

*have you ever tired walking alone.......hate the lonely road*

work movitation !!!!

2007-06-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm finished my long weekend....went out for a movie on sat and thats it...hmmm dont realli feel like it to go back tml but ......ya know just have to be back for work tml again.....pretty much dont like to take off thats the reason after taking off dont feel like going back......always the case...2 more of my friends went in tekong last week kinda fast but this is life....better finish fast end fast and better nth to do with it NS........

Caught fantistic 4 yest and went home after the movie reach home 3 am....didnt know so late....gotta slp like 4 + hmm....talking to dad about army life....i m alway grumbling ......when will grumbling ever stop in my mind ....perhaps getting old or izzit life just sucks....didnt know ...dont care also...tml gotta work....i dont have mood .....more ppl dont have mood just that dont know y feeling so lazy....now a days ....lazy to blog lazy to talk lazy just to do things..........argh!!!!!!!!!izzit army or izzit me ??????

*ArE yOu WaTcHiNg??? aRe YoU LoOkInG???Do YoU KnOw ???*

all of you again

2007-06-15T11:46:00.000-07:00

I was clearing a 2 days of my off at home.......thinking having plans for the 2 days of off......end up staying at home and slp....clean the hse.....wat a sad off...its okay....friends are just busy and having their own commitements.... its okay.......thought could spend sometime with friends......guess i m just not in the luck to meet my friends, thought i miss them guess they have their own lifes thats the reason sometimes y i dont bother to meet up with ppl cause their just busy.....or most of the time my luck with friends are just not too gd....wondering is it my problem or the time i ask ppl out is not right ?

Would a friend ever stay by your side forever???...........................................Guess my friends have already prove me an answer.............saded...........

times pass so fast

2007-06-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Time past fast.......its been 1 years since i was in the national service.....its been fast during this 1 year so many thing since the day of enlistment...changes of things changes of people....realli quick...getting old getting to be a knowledgable soldier...learn many things....my 2nd batch of friends ORD last week when i was around talking to them...they were telling me your time will come ..i guess everyone's days will come also..not realli thinking about ORD...could still remember last year this time i was in tekong....can remember clearly what was happening and all.....flashes and flashes of things...perhaps as time pass people and things are forgotten......

Was realli pretty busy last few week....perparing tons and tons of things ....tons and tons of event.....had a hell time....felt so tired......Sleeping was the only thing i wish for......was almost 1/2 day working OT almost everyday just returning home and there back to camp again...had many OT finish setting emails and all.....so many many things like there is not time to rest........no free time to be sick....only have time to die......couldnt really think of what the world is going on....did alot of things wrongly also got to learn alot of things as well....time to learn more things...NS life......a life of learning to be independant.....friends there are not as helpful as time...can be more childish than you can ever thing about...but....still have to work....working with them can be tough but nevertheless its also learning...perhaps its just another skill to pick up ba....

Enriching life.....some would rather said to be wasting of life......hope i would be able to get more and more use cause i m still not use to alot of things...getting scolding where things are not your fault.....Missing gd old days where only friends and lecturers....friendly ppl around....just having fun everyday....miss the gd old days where people simply cares for you and missing you....time to grow up....time to be independant...Throw off all the weak thought and carry on LCP tan...........

*I miss so much........*

weeks of thoughts

2007-05-05T12:59:00.000-07:00

I dont asking for forgiveness.....just hope you understand.... Just wann hold on tight and never let go

*Wish that nothing was done*

new month

2007-04-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

Went to li ping's birthday last nite..had a little chat with my little nui er....hmm glad she had such lovely friends around knew a few there how ever i could barely remember some but could chat alittle....had 1/2 a bottle of cheivas and a few cups of tiger...Went home after all had finished...hmm was a little sobber on the way home but had a quite gd nite to slp............

she is tired.....she feels pain, unpleasantly sick and weak.....she is moody and temperamental ..from her eyes you can see lies and sadness...shadow of fear and nth but fear....she feels weak and wann lean on something.....mixed.............she = me

-hOw lOnG iS fOrEvEr ??? MaYbE nExT mOmEnT fOrEvEr WilL eNd-

17 march

2007-03-17T10:46:00.000-07:00

Creeping feelings just comes back without fail....makes the heart wann tear so much..just simply so much......time just take so many things away y not take me away too ???

-PeOpLe ChAnGe, TiMe ChAnGe, ThInG cHaNgE......wHy CaN't My HeArT ChAnGe???-

heart

2007-03-10T08:00:00.000-08:00

-my heart feel so heavy today 10/03/07-

y cant i slp

2007-02-26T10:15:00.000-08:00

hmmm.....a very gd Qn to ask myself why cant i slp??? just slp izzit so hard ??? its like 2 am + and i just cant get into slp serious slp.....something must be wrong with my brains???i guess clod with lots and lots of shit....like tml wat to do many things to finish... args!!! i just dont wannn my life......i guess i'm serious not in the mood to do any things as well....args!!!! when will i just start a proper life...i just cant slp well do things well....hmm.....something must be wrong somewhere maybe its just pure plainly problems ba, problems that i have no solutions to it rather then thinking about it and nth else.....problems which can never be a full stop to it....never and ever....so hard living a life... human life so long ....worry this worry that...worry here worry there....haiz....thinking after army what should i be doing ???? another ? args!!! i just hate it when i just have to plan so many things and theres nothing i can move on about ............decisions again......again and again......how i wish i can be a happier person...how i wish how i wish....

have the urge to.......................

-MaTuRe CaN nEvEr Be HaPpY-

friday the 23

2007-02-23T06:12:00.000-08:00

请你有点风度好吗？

-can or not ?-

chu 2

2007-02-19T10:28:00.000-08:00

oh...today is chu 2 woke up by a sms....hmmm erm.....also dont know how to say wat to say wor...just take care ba...be strong thats all i can say...hmm k ler talk about the day...nth much went to ah ma's place was playing with the kids....oh i love auntie's kids they are so cute..hmm....ya she only like me haha...not my sisters haha....so ya.....was eating on the around table near some photo....was looking at ah gong photo suddenly miss him...though he use to tease me when i was young....i know he was certainly a great ah gong............

oh ya i m totally addicted to hana kimi 花樣少年少女....lol heehee damm nice eh ...but for those studying for exams should be studying for exams k :).....was looking at those photo from my HP...oh....so long ago one also got....hmm...until those recent photos.....miss those dayz............

- UnCoNtRoLAbLe ThOuGhTs 0 love o / o hate o-

chu 1

2007-02-18T07:19:00.000-08:00

oh...today is chu 1...hmmmm morning wake up later le like afternoon le mami hav to call all of us to wake up just to go my ah ma's place to eat oh....tired buy okay man....so ya after everyone wake up then we go le...way to ah ma's hse oh man sisters can change for the whole day ah....gals are gals..........changing take them the most time.....ok so after which ahead to granny hse le....aiyo go there so many kids lo.....cannot even seat args.......erm....find our way through me jiejie just go there to eat la actually....n more collect ang bao :)...this year ang bao little little =( no gd....nvm its okay also big liao no need ang bao la ....just a formality nia....so ya after that go aunt's hse oh man her hse is big....nice.....i like the TV so big haha..wann bring home ...go there see the kids play game only ba.....oh ya my niece....shes so cute man ......10 months know how to show funny face somemore tell her she will show...now a days baby damm cute leh...

guess thats all for the chu 1 ba....erm.....tired....nth much leh sometimes i wonder chinese izzit just getting togehter to talk cork nia...then later go home liao....i can still rememeber when we were young we just play together...but now everyone just do their own things.....change to be so quite le...perhaps dont see all the time liao ba so everyone just dont talk too much like last time...grow up le.....just realized i m one of the oldest there omg!....

Walking upon the streets late nite.....just listerning to my MP3...walk walk walk......love it....looking at the stars walking on the streets .....just seems so nice..........tonite had alot of stars man...cool.....

-JuSt WaNn PlUCk ThE StArS fRoM ThE SkY-

CNY no mood

2007-02-17T07:03:00.000-08:00

oh..CNY....another day of the year la nth much diff go grandmother hse then go home lo....same thing over and over again....oh ya caught a movie today by jack neo...new movie...funny must go and watch....just follow law i think....typical singapore show go watch k....if got time..hmm......new year wish.???? nah nth much this year ...just hope for gd health ba ...thats all.....erm....also dont know wats more liao hehee...guess this year just dont have the mood for ang baos ba......more of mood to rest at home n all.....yappie hope all of you best of health..oh ya also thanks those who send me new year smses =) wishes all of you a very happy new year !!! remember dont eat too much heaty things...... take carez all....

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